J.M. The Patient. A girl of fourteen with round cheeks, blushes of pink blooming. She sprouts, freckles that show her youthful fresh-face. Bound for sweetness. Then the reel comes; no way out. Deeper than the earth’s fire she wheezes, she roars, inflaming the groundlings of her lungs. Bogged branches climb her airways, her voice is […]
I am not giving up
Minnesota is conundrum. Some people know this and many don’t – one of the main reasons I left Minnesota is I followed my gut. The last year I was in Minnesota I had hemoptysis four times. Each time I got treated and started to recover – the weather and air quality turned me upside down, […]
At first glance
My treatments take forever. I am just saying, they take forever. Mentally, it is a daily exercise. I never told you about this machine; this vest. My other one died last fall – like September or October. Years ago when I got a new upgraded vest I paid 20% upfront to always be eligible for […]
Quandaries
I love my writing room. This is where ideas that move around in my head all day settle, ground me. I have a writing playlist, and that sets the tone. Then a bug flies by my head. A friend of mine recommended this book called 18 minutes by Peter Bregman. It has wonderful things to say – […]
Trees
I came up with a plan today or goal. My plan is to return to the MN CF clinic 3 times a year, roughly once every four months. I also decided to schedule my PFTs routinely there as well. I want it to be as close as a controlled study as possible. Last time I […]
A Gorgon and A Frog
I got permission to share a couple poems from another friend. I am actually going to just share the one at this time. The other poem which I want to share – is a bit bolder. I will have to think about it. It might be a bit for my blog. Hmmm . . . […]
One Orange Sock
I am not going to lie, I coughed a lot last night. Why did I cough? The sky turned blue, deepened to purple and melted into black. The stars heated and shined through the clouds, sharper and brighter. I own one orange sock. The water percolated a minute faster than last. I have no idea. […]
The Little Engine That Could
I think I started writing a story in verse. I would like to work on it as much as I can and then show my poetry professor. She does scare me still. Truth: it could be I am scared to be told I suck. She could just draw a line through your entire work and […]
A Short Spin
The other night I started watching Wine Country again on Netflix. It is so fucking funny. I do not know why exactly it is so funny, or perhaps I feel as I know and have known these people all my life which makes it only that much more funny. The main cast is Amy Poehler, […]
Dreams
Do you know what one of my favorite Madonna songs is of all time? “Promise to Try” from Like a Prayer; circa 1989. It almost makes me cry each time. I was thinking today in and between my landscaping – and this came to me. A quick list. No rhyme or reason for an explanation. This is just […]