Stillness – I love that word. It isn’t seeking peace, or quiet, but being still within. The energy surrounding me at this very moment is kinetic. The energy is passing through me and around me. Yet – I must remain still. What is seemingly contradictory about this is whenever I write, I listen to the […]
Filling My Heart
Today is one of these days when I feel blessed for everything in life. To tell you the truth it wouldn’t be because my health is outstanding, because it is not. I do the best that I can with what I have. It is a constant challenge. I work to my max mentally and physically […]
All Better Now
Today I found out my Dr. will not be available to see me next Monday for my appointment. A smile comes to my face. One less thing. Get my tests done and hit the pavement as fast as I can. As Sheila said today, “I can pretty much hear what he will say anyway.” Things […]
How does one say thank you each and every day of one’s life? I feel as I travel through each day weaving in and out of people’s lives, their stories, their suffering, and their blessings – and I am surrounded, cushioned, almost held by an infinite amount of energy keeping me alive. I feel an […]
Stronger
I often have a vision of myself sprinting, gliding, and sometimes casually walking on water. There is always a deep sunset in the background. It is almost black but then the reds and oranges cast just above the water, slicing the sky and the body of water in half. I have no true feeling of […]
This Year
This year I am having a hard time with the Christmas season. It literally changes year-to-year – I have no idea how it will be, how I will be. I am fine in all aspects of being “fine”, but I am always much better on December 26. It will change in a snap, just […]
Making an Attempt
I am going to try something and I am not sure if I will be successful at it. Frankly, I am not sure if I am ready for it, but as with most things you have to try. My over-arching goal in life is to live more whole. To put pieces together, sew them up […]
In Awe
Days turn into weeks, into months, and into years. I am in awe of this. I strive to get the most of it each day. Reading, writing, being, believing, and hold this energy to let it go into something better. It is one more day to a different story, maybe a better story – I […]
To Feel Alive
Taking pleasure in the little things – the things that you are doing without even being conscious of it. The evening of getting my PICC out I decided to go to some of my favorite places in Boston. Sheila was out-of-town at Headquarters in CT and I needed a celebration of sorts so I went […]
One of My Favorite Things
One of my favorite things in the world is not coughing. It is the small things. In my case, probably not so small. I, thankfully, got a PICC placed yesterday as an outpatient. Two-weeks of potent, knock the socks off of you, drugs. The infusion nurse asked me yesterday if I was nervous. I am […]