I sit here with my vest jacket on, pausing. I think I need more coffee. I have done my first part of my treatment and now will move my nebulizer machine onto a stool next to my treadmill to do my aerosol antibiotic on the treadmill. I have been doing this daily as the exercise […]
POV
Do you ever have that feeling when you eat you fill your stomach about as much it can muster and then stop? You exhale and then you look across the table and say, “That looks pretty good.” You reach, pick up that chocolate chip cookie or brownie covered in caramel sauce. You take a bite […]
Ocean waves
I am started listening to the ocean waves again. So this is what is on my mind – The only thing I care about is that everyone is okay – please be okay. It does like a circular motion. To reiterate: I am okay. The only thing I care about is that everyone is okay. […]
Stronger, bolder, brighter
I am sad. I am angry. I am in shock, and I am in disbelief. I am worried. I am thankful. I am disheartened. I am worried. I am tired. I am exhausted. I am weary. I am angry. I am really angry. And then the anger swells into tears, and I am relieved for […]
Oofta
My heart beats alongside the unanswerable and surmountable questions what I need most is to keep quiet inside, silence my mind. The easiest way for me to calm down and relax before anything is I bought an ocean sounds CD and it has 4 hours of ocean sounds on it. I usually just listen for […]
If you feel like singing, sing.
Kate Winslet – she is a beautiful woman. She has always been a beautiful woman. I have had a crush on Kate for over 20 years. The first time I saw her was in Sense and Sensibility in 1995 and I thought I just loved the movie, and I do, but I really adore Kate. She […]
Life and freedom
When I turned eighteen and a couple odd months after, I had an appointment with my CF clinic. Dr. Warwick asked me if I was on my parent’s plan, how I was getting health insurance, and what do you need? I said something to the fact that “I was about to get kicked off my […]
Listen –
I chatted with a couple friends this last week and I was reminded about a couple things – and came to a couple conclusions. One, I was saying how much I need time off. I know a lot of people do, but I am just speaking for me. I am not undercutting someone else. I […]
Shine that kettle
People ask me over and over again how ten-minute timed writings can translate into short stories, novels, essays. Then they ask me, “But what do you do with these timed writings?” My answer is, “I don’t know.” I mean that. What do I do after I drink a glass of water? I suppose I put […]
SexyBack
“When someone writes a Mommie Dearest memoir – where the narrator is presented as an innocent and the subject as a monster – the work fails because the situation remains static. For the drama to deepen, we must see the loneliness of the monster and the cunning of the innocent” – Vivian Gornick This is […]