Gratitude

I have been trying to compile all these positive and negative energies surrounding us: What to do with this information? How to filter it – taking it in, processing it, while not having it suppress us at the same time?

I don’t know if I will be able to accomplish this in this post, but what I do know is that “Everything is o.k. until it is not.”

Two weeks ago, February 2nd, a blood vessel popped in my lung – or so I believe – and I coughed up a lot of blood, a little too much for me.

I had some difficulty stopping it, because my vitamin K that clots it was expired a month prior. I don’t know if it had any active elements in it still, but it wasn’t working that effectively. I called-in some more, called my physician, onwards and upwards. In the meantime, I thought if I couldn’t take it in a pill form maybe I could eat it, and so I ate a whole bag of broccoli.

I did not go into the ER, because there they would make me take deep breaths, cough, and that was what I was trying to avoid. Later that day, I was able to get “fresh” Vitamin K, thankfully. I didn’t do my treatment that night wanting to avoid coughing; I didn’t work-out for two days after; my goal was to settle this explosion.

When all of this was happening, the blood, the gurgling of blood in my lung, I just kept saying “Please Stop.” Thus – “Everything is o.k. until it is not.”

The “Little Earthquakes”, the abruptions, the horrid images and words presented to us daily – what to do with them?

This too will pass – that is how we learned in some form or another. We cope. We wait. We believe, sometimes in disbelief. We have hope each moment in our lives; even in minute fractions, all the time. I also believe, in my belief, we can make the decision to have more compassion for others, not letting “all of this” to suppress us. Keep the doors open, because a world with shut doors is a bleak and suffocating one.

So as each moment passes when I don’t see blood or some other acute, unfriendly situation presented to me, I am thankful; my peace has returned to me.

I am so ever grateful.

But we can return OUR peace to OURSELVES anytime by flipping the page, turning the channel, or just stop listening to the nonsense and turn it ALL off altogether. We deserve our peace. We count on that peace to return, as it should and will because I cannot and will not accept anything less and neither should you.

And truthfully, the amount of peace you have inside, quantifying it, is a direct relationship to how you act and react each given moment in your life. When all the clatter goes away, you are only left with yourself. The more peace you have, the more you have of yourself.

“Get it. Good. Let’s Dance!” J. Jackson.