Filling My Heart

Today is one of these days when I feel blessed for everything in life. To tell you the truth it wouldn’t be because my health is outstanding, because it is not. I do the best that I can with what I have. It is a constant challenge. I work to my max mentally and physically […]

All Better Now

Today I found out my Dr. will not be available to see me next Monday for my appointment.  A smile comes to my face.  One less thing.  Get my tests done and hit the pavement as fast as I can. As Sheila said today, “I can pretty much hear what he will say anyway.” Things […]

How does one say thank you each and every day of one’s life? I feel as I travel through each day weaving in and out of people’s lives, their stories, their suffering, and their blessings – and I am surrounded, cushioned, almost held by an infinite amount of energy keeping me alive. I feel an […]

Stronger

I often have a vision of myself sprinting, gliding, and sometimes casually walking on water. There is always a deep sunset in the background. It is almost black but then the reds and oranges cast just above the water, slicing the sky and the body of water in half. I have no true feeling of […]

This Year

This year I am having a hard time with the Christmas season. It literally changes year-to-year – I have no idea how it will be, how I will be.  I am fine in all aspects of being “fine”, but I am always much better on December 26.   It will change in a snap, just […]

Making an Attempt

I am going to try something and I am not sure if I will be successful at it.  Frankly, I am not sure if I am ready for it, but as with most things you have to try. My over-arching goal in life is to live more whole. To put pieces together, sew them up […]

In Awe

Days turn into weeks, into months, and into years. I am in awe of this. I strive to get the most of it each day. Reading, writing, being, believing, and hold this energy to let it go into something better. It is one more day to a different story, maybe a better story – I […]

To Feel Alive

Taking pleasure in the little things – the things that you are doing without even being conscious of it. The evening of getting my PICC out I decided to go to some of my favorite places in Boston. Sheila was out-of-town at Headquarters in CT and I needed a celebration of sorts so I went […]

One of My Favorite Things

One of my favorite things in the world is not coughing. It is the small things. In my case, probably not so small. I, thankfully, got a PICC placed yesterday as an outpatient. Two-weeks of potent, knock the socks off of you, drugs. The infusion nurse asked me yesterday if I was nervous. I am […]

Just Stop. Listen.

Yesterday I turned 37, nearing 40. I have many goals for myself – striving to make 40, Fabulous 40. I want to feel strong, focused, and feel damn good. I have a list of objectives, of course. I want to feel and be better than ever. Just making that declaration is a good place to […]