How is everyone doing? How is everyone feeling? I have been struggling with what to write, what not to write, or if I should be writing my blog at all, at this time. I think you are supposed to keep doing what you are doing; keep doing what you have always done, and keep moving […]
Category Archives: cystic fibrosis
Gathering
I have been doing a lot of gathering lately, collecting thoughts. And then there are long waves and short waves of anxiety and worry and sadness, then hopefulness. When I start to freeze within or around the edgings of the first three, I have to move my mind and my body. I have to be […]
She was light
When she laughed she would throw her head back, her deep vibrato voice would carry out the door and down the hallway. She had a bronze tone to her skin. Her arms had muscles long and firm that showed she worked out, protected her otherwise small frame. She had no hips and she would laugh […]
Health
“Rhetoricians focus on the uses of language to persuade or to change people’s actions and opinions.” Most people think of the word rhetoric in a negative sense – maybe it has something to do with the “r” – err. Rhetoric focuses on the positivity as well. How words and languages and meaning-making systems shape beliefs, […]
Always could do
I sit here with my vest jacket on, pausing. I think I need more coffee. I have done my first part of my treatment and now will move my nebulizer machine onto a stool next to my treadmill to do my aerosol antibiotic on the treadmill. I have been doing this daily as the exercise […]
POV
Do you ever have that feeling when you eat you fill your stomach about as much it can muster and then stop? You exhale and then you look across the table and say, “That looks pretty good.” You reach, pick up that chocolate chip cookie or brownie covered in caramel sauce. You take a bite […]
Ocean waves
I am started listening to the ocean waves again. So this is what is on my mind – The only thing I care about is that everyone is okay – please be okay. It does like a circular motion. To reiterate: I am okay. The only thing I care about is that everyone is okay. […]
Stronger, bolder, brighter
I am sad. I am angry. I am in shock, and I am in disbelief. I am worried. I am thankful. I am disheartened. I am worried. I am tired. I am exhausted. I am weary. I am angry. I am really angry. And then the anger swells into tears, and I am relieved for […]
Oofta
My heart beats alongside the unanswerable and surmountable questions what I need most is to keep quiet inside, silence my mind. The easiest way for me to calm down and relax before anything is I bought an ocean sounds CD and it has 4 hours of ocean sounds on it. I usually just listen for […]
If you feel like singing, sing.
Kate Winslet – she is a beautiful woman. She has always been a beautiful woman. I have had a crush on Kate for over 20 years. The first time I saw her was in Sense and Sensibility in 1995 and I thought I just loved the movie, and I do, but I really adore Kate. She […]